[b] Dear Universe I would like to find some relief in my own believes about the mother of J. I know I have some beliefs because of the thinking of my boyfriend about her. Because of all the talking I think the same now. I want some relief, because when he talks about her I feel anger and irritation and thats tooo much upstream for me.
I know she is far different form normal mothers, but I would like to have it smooth and easy. She is not normal because I can see that from her actions.
But if I keep seeing all of her weird actions, she will keep doing al this actions. I am not the only creator her. But I have problems when my boyfriend is talking about her actions or so I imediatly I feel, ohhh..this is too upstream for me...
What can I do about this? Because he wants to tak things trough and I do'nt because with talking you create futurelife. I dont want that. I can leave. I could do that. It is in my head more often. I just dont want all this kind of crap in my life experience. He wants my opinoin and I dont want to have one because then you are making an conclusion....
I am so tired of this.
For how long will this continue?
About 2 years he can decide, but 2 years are far too long for me.
I have to do something about my reaction.
I want to shut my mouth.
I want to say when he ask for my opinion, i just dont have it. If he still wants mine I will ask why are you doubting about this? It is your child remember, you know in your heart what is right??? Or I will ask does it feels good to you to do so? Lets do it then!
I want to let him speak and think of poistive aspects of myself.
This woman can act normal.
This woman is screaming for psychical help for her own.
This woman is sad because she need some love.
This woman create her part in this.
This is something between her and him and i have nothing to do with this!!!!!
This is not my life.
It is like it is now.
All has a reason.
There are some good things she does too, for J. Like clothing him.
It is not my pie.
I am taking back my noice out of the pie of my boyfriend.
What is in my pie:
In my pie there is;
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, STARS,
POSITIVE ENERGY,
HEALING,
WEALTH,
HEALTH,
UBUNDANCE, CARING,
TRUST,
BELIEVING,
DEVINE,
POWER,
SELFESTEAM,
BEAUTIFUL PICTURES,
LOVELY HOME,
LUXEREUS LIFESTYLE.I would love to focus now on:
:AngleLove:
Home 
